>> Sunday, May 17, 2015
Bug's seizures have been within baseline, it's his mood. He is lethargic, melancholy, smiling only every so often and when he does, it doesn't last much longer than 30 minutes. It's as if he is sick, without being sick and he is wearing 100 pounds of weights. He is walking with his knees slightly bent and I find myself wondering if he has something broken. He just lays on the ground and watches me, or watches television or half-plays with a toy, nothing 'little boy' about him, more like old man. I hope it's nothing to worry about but my Mommy sense tells me: something is amiss. Most likely, it's allergies or something along those lines and my Mommy sense is full of it. I am often full of it. It's my natural state.
He goes to the Doctor tomorrow. Hopefully, we can get all the tests I want him to have and we can get some answers or at least a direction. Long night ahead, followed by 'normal' or 'within range' and I will fade into silent misery with concern about what we are missing.