>> Saturday, January 31, 2015
The eyes may be the window to the soul, but with Autism, they are next to EVERYTHING *and* the soul. You can see what isn't there and as much as you can see what is.
For Bug, we started losing eye contact at the age of 3. And for at least 6 years, he would only look at us once in a while, usually after a seizure. He just wasn't 'there'. With the advent of Leucovorin for his Cerebral Folate Deficiency, he started looking at us again, not through us, or beyond us, but at us. He starting seeing us again.
That was almost 3 years ago. Each year gets better and better and then came the CBD.
Since starting that 4 months ago, he doesn't just look at us, he seeks us out. He WANTS us to look at him.
He will be playing intently with a toy, happy, humming at it and then he will pause and look at one of us and just stare. Sometimes he will smile, but mostly he just looks.
I have no idea why he does, or what he is 'getting at', but the fact that my boy is PRESENT and aware and looking at me again, it means everything. It IS everything. Not saying: Mom I love you or Mom, leave me alone, heck even Mom, I hate you would mean as much to me. Speech may come, it may not, but the fact that boy sees me again, and wants to spend time with me, looking at him, seeing him, it really is everything and more.